sneaking up on me.

this christmas has completely snuck up on me!
the fact that i can see my grass outside could be part of it, but it just doesn't feel like christmas!
already, the break from school has gone way too fast. i've enjoyed sleeping in, going to the gym every day, and catching up on some of my favorite TV series' on netflix way too much! 
however, i have realized how much fun it is to be with my family and i'm ready to spend the next week or so all together - extended family and all. there are some things that i'm missing, but i'm working on putting on a happy face :) i'm pretty close to having mastered that, any time, any place.


we enjoyed a yummy dinner at dave's kitchen in salt lake. you like chinese food? go to dave's. 
dave's kitchen is a good kitchen. 

i spent a fun day yesterday shopping with my siblings. i am particularly excited about a gift for big V. i think he will be surprised and completely excited! pictures to come, don't you worry. 


i mostly love sitting in our "present wrapping" room with my brothers, wrapping their gifts for them (i am way too nice) and chatting about life. i have realized that i am not always in a hurry, that there isn't always somewhere to go, and that downtime is completely okay. 
i spent a few hours today with andrew. he is leaving mid-ish january for LA to go to school. LA? take me there! i would love to drop everything, move to a new place, and do something different. i think i have posted that like 3 times, oh well. what an adventure. i am excited for him and he is excited and ready. 


i'm mentally preparing for our LAW family christmas eve festivities to commence in just a couple hours. here's to a bunch of kids, a bunch of family, a bunch of crazies getting together for food, fun, games, and laughs. 
let the party begin! 


p.s. grandbaby #3 will be here any day now. no, she still does NOT have a name. think of some cute names for me. 


p.p.s.
welcome home alli! love this picture.

this is an awful picture, but it made me laugh. 

happy christmas to all.

dashboard.

the dashboard in my car is black. it collects dust like nobody's business. 

my mind is like that dashboard. the ideas are collected like little dust particles. 

too many ideas flow through my mind. 

i want to come up with something that will be brilliant. that will benefit other people. someday.

i am so tempted to move to LA with my brother. start new and do something different. but that won't happen, i am in school. what would i do while i was there? the thought is pleasing, however.

i was given the analogue of somebody with one functioning left arm and a right arm that was cut off lying right on the ground. you think to yourself, "i need that arm! i would be complete with that other arm. if only i could put that right arm on." i need that other arm, but i don't know how to get it. i don't know what to do. it sounds confusing, but it makes perfect sense to me. 

take me back to this day - 

when things weren't hard. when life decisions didn't need a solution. when life wasn't an everyday battle. when life wasn't heartbreaking. 

a break from those things would sure be nice. but, they never go away. 

i just wish i could know. 

that's all.

leave of absence.

i wish i could take a leave of absence from finals. unfortunately, that's not an option. 

i know, everyone blabs about finals - that's all we can talk about! that's all i can focus on, basically. 

but when i think of it, there's so much more to life than finals. 

i have

great friends, 

a wonderful family, 

and the big guy upstairs who loves all of us! 

i have a hard time keeping in mind that my life is something a lot bigger than anything i can imagine. i wish it was something i could grasp and understand, but it just isn't. and i'm okay with that, most of the time. 

there is something amazing in store for all of us - i need to keep that in mind too!

check out the pictures below. they are of my grandpa, vernon law. he was a cy young award winner in 1960 in major league baseball. for all of you non-baseball knowledgeables, that's an award given to the best pitcher in ALL of baseball. that's pretty cool. 

he was a wonderful example for the church. he never swore, never drank, never had tobacco. 

his nickname was "the deacon" - for obvious reasons. 

what a bash in their pittsburgh neighborhood! 

thanks.

i attempted a post from my mobile, eva. but... the picture looked weird and it wasn't up to my blog post "par". 

i've been in a blogging slump i decided. things have gone on and i've thought, "oh! write a post about that!" but then, i never do. sorry. i know all of you are anxiously awaiting my next post! 

my parents and adam were gone in the dominican republic with the byu baseball team so i was here at home on my own for a bit. and i loved it. so, i spent a great thanksgiving with a wonderful family. it was one to remember, i sure love that family! 

the void of dear pugsley is still in my heart. :( 

festival of trees is always a law family christmastime tradition. here's one of my favorite trees:

(and favorite movies!)

my computer knowledge is greatly increasing. if you want to refinance, just ask me. i know all! okay, i'm kidding. i don't know all! i am learning as i go and i definitely don't instruct people in refinancing! what i have learned, is that people in the loan/refinance business work crazy hours! change is good though. i sit a a computer all day, i have about every song memorized on 97.1 ZHT's "i heart radio" app, and my typing words per minute has gone up as well. those are all good things right?

my most favorite week is coming up. NOT. finals are my worst. but it's time to prepare, buckle down, and rock my finals! by next friday - 2 math assignments, 1 five page paper, 5 chapters of reading, and 3 finals later, i will be free! 

wish me luck. 

in the mean time... i'm in a place that i've been in before with my life. it's just one of those things.

if you want to give me a really nice gift for christmas, i am now accepting this:

happy studying and happy holidays!